Family and Friends Forum

Hi all, it is such a difficult way to live...in limbo, with very little clarity or ability to move on. We had the knock in May and our world has been turned upside down. I went into full on practical mode, knowing what was to come. Sold our family home, separated immediately, broke the news of our separation to my two gorgeous and sensitive boys (5 and 7) and applied for another job to support finances. Since that time, ive bought a wee place for me and boys and we move next week. Ive packed up my previously safe and happy life into boxes and ex has lost his job (thank god I secured more money in preparation). As the practicalities have been addressed, I find myself feeling lonely and irritated that I miss the man I thought I married. Having to supervise contact and dive back into that performance on a weekly basis is soul destroying. I know it will get easier and I am so proud I have secured a future for me and the boys...but this really does suck sometimes. Also very isolating as it is not something anyone wants to discuss with you or acknowledge, so it kinda feels like you don't get the chance to vent and grieve to the extent you need to. Hope you are all ok. Looking forward to the group later this month. Celebrating the small wins...went rogue and bought myself a bright pink kettle today...just because I blooming can and wanted to. Much love