Module 1: Understanding Why

Exercise 2: Progression Timeline

The second exercise is in three parts and looks back over your life to help you think about how you started and then continued looking at images.

PART A: Making your timeline

This first step in the exercise aims to provide you with a clear visual, mapping your progression toward accessing illegal images on the internet. In each box, write a brief description of a key event in your life, marking a progression in your online behaviour, eventually leading to your access of illegal content. Have a look at the example below to help you get started. We recommend completing your timeline in the following order: 

  1. Your current situation (will likely be at the far right)
  2. The first time that you accessed illegal images of children (be sure to highlight this point on the timeline)
  3. Think back to your first memory of being sexually aroused, be it with pornography or other (will likely be near the far left)
  4. In between each of the above, identify other significant key events that you believe can be seen as ‘signposts’ in your life for where you broke down a barrier and progressed to more risky online behaviour. Remember that this is your timeline – if you feel that you need more boxes to tell your story, feel free to add.

EXAMPLE

Understanding Why Exercise 2a

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  1. Download and open the file in a PDF reader. If you are unable to do this, you can download this free Adobe PDF reader.
  2. Edit the worksheets by filling in the editable fields.
  3. To save your changes, go to File > Print
  4. Choose Adobe PDF as the printer in the Print dialogue box and click Print.
  5. Click OK, name the PDF file, and save it in a desired location.

PART B: Digging deeper

To further explore and reflect on your timeline, complete the following table in as much detail as possible. Feel free to use the ‘Feelings word bank’ (below) if needed. Remember to think about these 5 broad classes of activities when filling in the activities column:

  • Downloading illegal child images
  • Trading these images with others
  • Producing illegal images of children
  • Contacting children on the Internet for sexual reasons
  • Offline sexual activity with children

EXAMPLE

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Instructions for editing and saving your PDF template

  1. Download and open the file in a PDF reader. If you are unable to do this, you can download this free Adobe PDF reader.
  2. Edit the worksheets by filling in the editable fields.
  3. To save your changes, go to File > Print
  4. Choose Adobe PDF as the printer in the Print dialogue box and click Print.
  5. Click OK, name the PDF file, and save it in a desired location.

Feeling word bank:

Happy          Sad          Angry          Hurt          Depressed          Frustrated          Impulsive          Stressed          Relaxed

Excited          Bored          Curious          Rejected          Doubtful           Interested          Lonely          Irritated          Ashamed

Upset          Annoyed           Miserable          Guilty          In despair          Uneasy          Useless          Vulnerable          Afraid

Nervous          Timid          Indifferent          Restless          Alienated           Nonchalant           Dull          Anxious          Confident

 

 

PART C: Understanding your behaviour over time

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Looking back over your diary and your timeline, consider the following questions:

1. How much control do you feel you had over the events that influenced you to engage in more risky behaviour? In hindsight, how could you have handled them differently?

2. How much control do you think you had over the choices you made to take action toward further offending behaviour? Why?

3. What effect/patterns or trends can you notice about the development of your sexual fantasies?

Now consider when you started using the internet regularly:

4. What made you decide to use the internet?

5. Did the act of using the internet change the way you were thinking? In what way?

6. Over time, what effect did the internet have on your life off-line (in the real world)?

7. How would you describe your life on-line (while using the internet)?

Now consider the one event that led you access illegal content for the first time and afterward:

8. Why do you think it was this specific event that triggered you to access illegal content for the first time? Why not something earlier in your life?

9. Were there other things happening in your life beyond what you have mentioned that could have contributed to your decision to access sexual images of children on the internet?

10. Why do you think you have continued the behaviour over time? 

11. Using the list below, make a note of all the offending behaviours that you have engaged in:

a. Downloading illegal child images
b. Trading these images with others
c. Chatting to adults about sex with children online i.e. sharing fantasies
d. Contacting children on the Internet for sexual reasons (either via chat or webcams)
e. Exposing children to sexual behaviour via  webcam
f. Producing illegal images of children
g. Voyeurism (hidden cameras)
h. Offline sexual activity with children

Can you identify how your offending changed over time and involved different behaviours?

12. Have you at any time tried to stop using the internet to access illegal images of children? If so, how many times did you try and stop? Why do you think you were not successful?

What are the important things that are motivating you to address your behaviour now? How important are they to you?

 


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